I had been with my old company for a long time. For the last 18 months, I experienced the most horrific workplace drama ever. Each night I would pray that God gave me strength and grace to deal with the situation without getting fired. The economy was in the first official stages of the Great Recession and I felt like I was fortunate to at least have a job, so I was not in a hurry to do anything to jeopardize it.
Looking back on it. I behaved like a house slave. I was treated horribly, but because I knew people in worse situations, I felt like I should be grateful. What complete and utter bullshit.* I kept thinking back to the time when I was fired out of the blue. I felt devastated then and I honestly didn't think I could get through that again.
Well, after my most recent performance rating decision, I started seeing things clearly. I started thinking that not only did I not deserve to be treated with such blatant disrespect, but I could do better! I know now that was divine inspiration. Sometimes you just need The Most High to yank you by the collar be like,
'Fool what are you doing?'**
'This is not the path that I set for you. You keep hitting roadblocks because I want you to go the OTHER WAY!"
So, one day it all just seemed really clear. I needed to make a move. Create a plan. Complete step 1 of that plan.
I'm about 3 steps in now I finally feel like I'm swimming downstream.
*I didn't mean to be blasphemous in a testimony post, but 'crap' just isn't passionate enough.
*Yes, Jesus is my homeboy and he speaks in urban colloquialisms.